Sunday night I had a difficult time going to sleep. Usually, I enjoy taking naps on Sunday afternoons, however, yesterday I was unable to sleep. Then, when I finally went to bed, there was too many thoughts going on for me to sleep.
So, I got up and read the Bible some, and prayed. The Lord has burdened my heart about a matter and I truly need to hear from Him concerning this matter. I find myself in that proverbial rock and a hard place.
While I can’t go into too much detail yet, I am coming to a realization of something I have probably known in my heart for some time. However, that doesn’t make the decision or the situation any easier. I am realizing that being a leader is “hard work” and you need to make sure that you make the right decisions since other people are involved.
One of my weaknesses is that I like to please people. Not out of desiring their approval or love (at least I don’t think so!). So, too often, I will allow myself to be put in a position that I find myself in today. I will let a situation or issue drag on, probably longer than it needs or should. I like to think of it as a type of long suffering 🙂
Thus, I found myself unable to sleep on Sunday night. Wrestling with God, but knowing that He is still in control, He still loves me and He is more than able to carry me through this situation.