Then he (Elijah) was afraid, and he arose and ran for his life and came to Beersheba, which belongs to Judah, and left his servant there. But he himself went a day’s journey into the wilderness and came and sat down under a broom tree. And he asked that he might die, saying, “It is enough; now, O LORD, take away my life, for I am no better than my fathers.” (1 Kings 19:3-4 ESV)
Last evening was a very momentous occasion for me. A group of eight people came together with one desire: to see Jesus’ Name proclaimed in the heart of Donetsk. I was on “Cloud Nine”. I have been a part of several new church starts, but never from the very beginning. So, for me, last evening was a mountain top experience, much like Elijah must have felt after defeating the prophets of Baal. (Please know that I am not equating myself to Elijah, just his feelings…)
Immediately after Elijah had his great victory and he heard that Jezebel wanted his neck, he forgot the glorious victory God gave him and he fled. I have often wondered how Elijah could have done just that! He fled?!
Last evening, a great thing happened in my apartment. Yet, this afternoon, while underneath my kitchen sink trying to repair a leak, a moment of weakness came over me and I wanted to run and hide! Much like Elijah…
Immediately, I got out from underneath my sink and began to pray to Almighty God, seeking forgiveness for my weakness. It was as if the Lord said to me, like he asked Elijah, “What are you doing , Joe?” (paraphrase from 19:9)
God wasn’t finished with Elijah at the time and I know He isn’t finished with me either. Even though I have been a Christ follower for more than 35 years, I still am a child. I will always be a student. So, yes, I guess I sort of know how Elijah felt at that moment of despair.
And I decided I am not the plumber my Uncle Lewis was and I got out from underneath the sink and called a true plumber.