Music is a big part of my life. I love to sing, as many of you know. While in America, I tried to listen to new Christian music so that I could purchase some new CDs.
After I picked up the car in Houston, I tuned to my favorite radio station, KSBJ in Houston. One of the first songs I heard was a new song by Natalie Grant called “Held.”
By the time I arrived in Wichita Falls later that day (and switching the radio to KLTY in DFW), I heard the song several more times that day. Instantly, I liked the message of the song and had to purchase the CD.
The story is about a mother whose child died at 2 months old and the raw feelings the family went through. “Two months is too little, they let him go, they had no sudden healing, to think that providence would take a child from his mother while she prays, is appalling.”
The song is filled with emotions all of us have felt when losing a love one. In 2000 and 2001, my family went through a difficult time. During those two years, more than a dozen members of my mom’s side of the family died. In 5 months, I preached at three family member’s funerals.
I guess that is why this song speaks so well to me. What’s so beautiful in the song is the chorus. The hope to which it speaks to. “This is what it means to be held, how it feels when the sacred is torn from your life and you survive. This is what it is to be loved and to know that the promise was that when everything fell we’d be held.”
The promise is that we are held in the hand of a wonderful, loving God during those difficult times. That is what helped me as I struggled through those two years and it is what helps me now on the mission field.
Another song that I found to be great is a song from Casting Crowns. (By the way, I am not on either one’s payroll for plugging their new CDs!) I had not heard of this group until after I moved to Ukraine. This song is from their second release (I think). It is called, “Lifesong.’
The second verse really spoke to me, “Lord, I give my life, a living sacrifice, to reach a world in need, to be your hands and feet.” That is my desire. To be the hands and feet for Christ. To take the message of Christ to the world (or at least to the world God has me in at the moment).
So, today, let my lifesong sing of Him as He holds me.