Patience is definitely an area where I have always struggled. So, at this moment, while I am waiting to hear back from doctors or clinics, I don’t like this struggle as I wait for someone to call.
And, yet, God provides little reminders for me…
This picture is in a room where I am staying right now, and I see it often. What a wonderful reminder that when the storms of life hit, one needs to be still and know that He is God.
Then, recently a friend posted this scripture from Isaiah on my FB wall:
This is one of my favorite verses. What a great reminder of where my strength comes from.
So, I am learning the art of waiting. I’m trying to be patient. I’m trying to be still.
Last December, I was diagnosed with stones in my gallbladder. During the medical testing, they also found a spot on my pancreas. When I traveled to Budapest for the surgery, they performed an MRI to check out the spot and said the spot wasn’t there. So, I forgot about the spot, never thought about it again.
A few months ago, I started having the same pain again. Being busy with summer plans, I didn’t think much about it. I went on vacation and the pain got worse. Upon my return to Ukraine, I went to a clinic in Kyiv where they did an ultrasound and CT. Both showed a spot on my pancreas.
I returned to Wichita Falls, TX for further evaluation. I had an MRI done that confirmed there is a lesion on the neck of my pancreas. So, now, I am waiting for the clinic in Dallas to call with an appointment for a biopsy to be done. The MRI didn’t reveal whether it is benign or malignant.
So, more waiting, and while I wait, God is stretching me and teaching me. Teaching me to be still and know that He is God and to wait for the Lord to renew my strength. This was not in my plans for this fall. However, plans change.
What hasn’t changed is my faith in God and knowing that He is with me as I walk (and wait!) down this path. I trust Him completely.