A few days ago, I sent out my newsletter which spoke about how God directed my path to Donetsk instead of a couple of other places. One place that my supervisor and I talked about would have been in a country where I believe life would have been a little easier. Also, there would have been many more “creature comforts.”
Being a human that has spent 10 years of my life in the former Soviet Union and the difficulties that we face here, I must admit that I was quickly drawn to that country. I did a lot of research on the state of the church there, read lots of information about the country and liked what I read. However, my heart kept pulling me back to consider Ukraine.
Ukraine was not my first choice. Matter of fact, I really didn’t want to return to Ukraine. But, yet God continued to speak to my heart. This past Tuesday, in my quiet time, I read these words in My Utmost… “God gives us a vision, then He takes us down to the valley to batter us into the shape of the vision, and it is in the valley that so many of us faint and give way. Every vision will be made real if we will have patience.”
Those who know me know I struggle with patience. I always have. “I want patience and I want it know!” is my battle cry!
During those couple of months when I was struggling with a decision, I felt just like what Chambers wrote. “..He takes us down to the valley to batter us into the shape of the vision…” It was a difficult decision to return to Ukraine and move to Donetsk. I wanted to serve on a team and really didn’t want to live in a city where I was the only IMB person. Yet, the Lord gently and lovingly, kept tugging on my heart.
Eventually, I knew it wasn’t the Lord’s will for me to move to the other country. So, I began focusing on Ukraine and the two possibilities I was presented with. One possibility was to move to Crimea and live in Simferopol. Beach reach danced in my head and tugged at my heart. Yet, my attention was turned to Donetsk and the more than 1 million people in the city and it being the most populated, least reached area of the country.
Ultimately, I knew it was the only decision to make and the right one.
Chambers continues “Let Him put you on His wheel and whirl you as He likes, and as sure as God is God and you are you, you will turn out exactly in accordance with the vision.” Well, that remains to be seen in my case, but I do hope that as I prepare to move next week to Donetsk, that my heart and head will listen to the voice of God and that He will direct my steps. That is when His vision will become my reality.