How often do I run “ahead” of God’s plans?
As I read from Genesis 16-17 this morning, that question came to mind. Abram was 86 years old and his wife was childless. Yet, when he was 75 years old and still living in Haran, the Lord made a promise to make him a great nation.
Without a child, how could Abram become a great nation? What should he do? In chapter 16, Sarai offered her servant, Hagar, to Abram. She conceived and immediately Sarai felt contempt for her.
Instead of waiting to see what God had planned, Sarai and Abram decided to forge their own plan. It created more problems and lots of strife.
Doesn’t that happen in my life when I run ahead of God? God has a plan for me, yet, I decide to do my own thing, because, “after all, I know what’s best for me.”
When Abram was 99 years old, the Lord made a covenant with him. God promised to make him the father of a multitude of nations. Then, God promised to bless Sarah with a son.
Now, Abraham (God changed his name in 17:5) fell on his face and laughed (17:17)! After all, he would be 100 and Sarah (God changed her name in 17:15) would be 90! I think if I had been in the same situation, my reaction would have been similar, “How can that be, God!?”
Since my diagnosis with cancer, I have become a bit more emotional, so that means that I must have even a tighter reign over what my reaction might be. Just last night I was having some feelings of emotions over a situation. And just like it is oftentimes, my first reaction was to run from it or take the “easy” road.
But, when I allowed myself a few minutes to reflect on the situation, what the consequences might be, and then prayed, I felt much better. I’m learning (have learned, will continue to learn…) that I cannot react quickly to emotions, feelings, situations. I must step back and look at the problem/ situation with a clear head.
Too often, I find myself wanting to get ahead of God’s plans for me. Hopefully, though, I have enough faith in God to wait. I must submit myself to God’s leadership. Trusting that He knows what’s best for my life. And sometimes, that means, waiting… waiting for what’s best, not just what’s good.